मेरे गीत तुम्हारे पास सहारा पाने आएँगे - दुष्यंत कुमार

मेरे गीत तुम्हारे पास सहारा पाने आएँगे

मेरे बाद तुम्हें ये मेरी याद दिलाने आएँगे

हौले—हौले पाँव हिलाओ,जल सोया है छेड़ो मत

हम सब अपने—अपने दीपक यहीं सिराने आएँगे

थोड़ी आँच बची रहने दो, थोड़ा धुआँ निकलने दो

कल देखोगी कई मुसाफ़िर इसी बहाने आएँगे

उनको क्या मालूम विरूपित इस सिकता पर क्या बीती

वे आये तो यहाँ शंख-सीपियाँ उठाने आएँगे

रह—रह आँखों में चुभती है पथ की निर्जन दोपहरी

आगे और बढ़ें तो शायद दृश्य सुहाने आएँगे

मेले में भटके होते तो कोई घर पहुँचा जाता

हम घर में भटके हैं कैसे ठौर-ठिकाने आएँगे

हम क्या बोलें इस आँधी में कई घरौंदे टूट गए

इन असफल निर्मितियों के शव कल पहचाने जाएँगे.

I Can't Make You Love Me

Turn down the lights;

Turn down the bed.

Turn down these voices

Inside my head.

Lay down with me;

Tell me no lies.

Just hold me close;

Don't patronize.

Don't patronize me.

'Cuz I can't make you love me

If you don't.

You can't make your heart feel

Something it won't.

Here in the dark

In these final hours,

I will lay down my heart

And I'll feel the power;

But you won't.

No, you won't.

'Cuz I can't make you love me

If you don't.

I'll close my eyes,

Then I won't see

The love you don't feel

When you're holding me.

Morning will come,

And I'll do what's right;

Just give me till then

To give up this fight.

And I will give up this fight.

- Raj

I can't smile without you

You know I can't smile without you

I can't smile without you

I can't laugh and I can't sing

I'm finding it hard to do anything

You see I feel sad when you're sad

I feel glad when you're glad

If you only knew what I'm going through

I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song

And brighten my day

Who would have believed that you where part of a dream

Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you

I can't smile without you

I can't laugh and I can't sing

I'm finding it hard to do anything

You see I feel sad when you're sad

I feel glad when you're glad

If you only knew what I'm going through

I just can't smile

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find

Well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you

I can't smile without you

I can't laugh and I can't sing

I'm finding it hard to do anything

You see I feel glad when you're glad

I feel sad when you're sad

If you only knew what I'm going through

I just can't smile without you

- Raj

Feeling like Expendable

One can't understand what makes one feel like Expendable unsless he/she remembers a scene from the movie Rambo II. Rambo (played by Sylvester Stallone) and Co Bao (played by Julia Nickson) are discussing about their lives.

Co Bao: Why did they pick you? Because you like to fight?

Rambo: I'm expendable.

Co Bao: What mean expendable?

Rambo: It's like someone invites you to a party and you don't show up. It doesn't really matter. 

Its life, difficult to say, how to still love it....

- Raj

सपने – एक मृगतृष्णा के

कभी कभी ये जानते हुए कि क्या सही है और क्या गलत, हमलोग गलत की ही चाहत रखते हैं । मन कुछ कहता है और दिल कुछ और ....... इस उधेढ़बुन में ज़िन्दगी सिसक के रह जाती है। मन अपनी आंखो से सब कुछ देखता है पर दिल तो कुछ समझना ही नही चाहता है। उसे बस एक मृगतृष्णा की तलाश रहती है। सच में ये एक मृगतृष्णा ही तो है। कल को जब दिन ढलेगा तो हम फिर खाली हाथ रह जायेंगे । पर फिर भी आज वो ही अच्छा लगता है । 

भगवान भी थोड़े अजीब हैं । वो ऐसी परिस्थितियाँ परोक्ष रखते हैं कि हमलोग भी दिग्भ्रमित हो जाते हैं । पर मैं जब खुद को समझ नही पाया तो उनकी बातों को क्या समझ सकुंगा ।  आज अच्छा लगता है, अभी अच्छा लगता है.......कुछ नज़दिकियाँ अच्छी लगती है तो कभी कभी दुरियाँ भी अच्छी लगतीं हैं । सच में थोड़ी दुरी अच्छी लगती है, एक झूठ दिल को तसल्ली देता है । कभी कभी लगता है कि बैकड्रॉप में किसी फिल्म का गाना बज रहा है - 

“ ज़िन्दगी इस तरह से लगने लगी, रंग उड़ जाये जो दिवारों से       

अब छुपाने को अपना कुछ ना रहा, ज़ख्म दिखने लगे है दरारों से......”

पुरूष एक ऐसी झुठी मानसिकता का चादर ओढ के रहता है कि वो अपनी मजबुरियाँ किसी के साथ साझा भी नही कर सकता । दीये की रौशनी कभी कभी बहुत खुबसुरत काम करती है, वो हमें बस वो दिखाती है जिसे हम दिल से देखना चाहते हैं और फिर वही दिल ये कहता है की आस-पास कोई और है ही नही । जब भी दिल मुस्कुराने कि कोशिश करता है, मन उसे टोक देता है, कहता है कि आँखे खोलो, जिसे तूम अपना समझते हो, वो एक सपना मात्र है । फिर खुशी ना जाने कहाँ चली जाती है । रह जाता है तो बस एक सन्नाटा । बैक ग्राँउड का गाना फिर बदल जाता है - 

“दिल कहता है, चल उनसे मिल, उठते है कदम रूक जाते हैं

दिल हमको कभी समझाता है, हम दिल को कभी समझाते है .....”

किसी से कुछ कह भी नही सकता, तो सोचा अपने अंतर्मन की व्यथा किसी कोरे कागज़ पर उतार दूँ, शायद ये समझ सके मेरे अन्दर के अंतर्द्वन्द को । 

एक खालीपन है, मन में जीवन में।  

A journey to remember.....!!

While I was searching some classic romantic movies such as An affair to remember and a walk to remember on internet, I just happened to pass through a memoir of a teenager who had an sweet encounter of life. His letter was dedicated to his beloved and was a very romantic description of the beautiful time spend together by them. Though, his letter was in hindi, the beautiful and small narration of his journey was very touching. I tried my best efforts to translate it. I hope, the language can't be a barrier in expression of emotions.

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A journey to remember.....!!

Never in my life had I thought that I will experience life at its best. The day started by seeing your face, the lady who enriched my life with her enchanting smile. The journey was though short in its place value but happened to be larger than life in its face value. When you sat on my bike, I was thrilled. I was thrilled to think about our journey and spending time together. On taxi, I could feel my authority over you. It was good. I found that you were really depending upon me. I was the man of our family. We finally took our bus, we were enjoying our first breath of freedom.

Ever thought, that there is someone above, who looks after our thoughts and desires..? We call him God. I know, he really exists. He took pain for us to make the weather the most beautiful fairy, it could ever look. Little shower and cool breeze were her ornaments. The happiness was visible on your face. The feeling that lightened your face, gave me extreme satisfaction. You trusted me, you rested your head on my shoulder and closed your eyes, holding my arms. I could never ever forget those moments. The breeze made your silky hair kiss me all over my face. I was experiencing a soothing sensation.

Happiness was all around me. You allowed me to come more closer. I touched you in a way, the life initiates itself. That feeling cannot be expressed by me. I felt so many emotions in those fractions of seconds. It was excitement, jubilation, ecstasy, agony, bitterness and many more....I wanted to get closer, but not today, someday else. I can still feel those gripping sensations in my hands. That touch was great, really great....coz I felt you, internally.

After sometime, we departed with sweet memories of freedom, love, joy, sorrow, closeness, relationship, commitment and a life that I lived with you. I will never ever in my life forget this mesmerizing experience. 

Thanks to you my Love....

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Life is best, Always...

- Raj

I Love my Bihar

One of the millions reasons why I can't stop myself from Loving My Bihar.

Bihar's tableau on display at Rajpath during the Republic Day Parade in New Delhi on 26th January 2012. The concept was giving special love and concern to girl child. In Dharhara village of Bhagalpur district, people plant 10 trees when a girl child is born in family. A girl is a greatest gift of god, and even god loves a girl much more than anything else. A determined drive can initiate a spark to light the lamp and show the world that we all are part of the great Mother India.

Hasta La Vista 2011

Another year will just end in few hours. Its second time I am posting this year. Life has been at its best in all its senses, Love, Hate, Boons, curses, Back stabbing, conspiracies and everything.

Yet another year has gone by and as I can see…I am still here...

just pondering, क्या खोया, क्या पाया....?

Bye Bye 2011, will surely remember you, forever....!!

लौट आओ...!!

धड़्कते दिल के पैगाम सुनो..
कि एक मुद्दत हुई तुम्हे ये राज़ जताते हुए. ..
एक शाम मेरे नाम करो आज..
की एक अरसा हुआ तुम्हे पास बुलाते हुए..
हो सके तो एक महफिल मुझे दे दो..
की उब चुके है उम्र यु हीं तनहा बिताते हुए...
गर तुम आ सको तो लौट आओ मेरी ज़िन्दगी में...
की खत्म हो रहे हैं अब सब बहाने..
इस ज़िन्दगी को आज़माते हुए..

दर्द में भी यह लब मुस्कुरा जाते है...

दर्द में भी यह लब मुस्कुरा जाते है
बीते लम्हें हमें जब भी याद आते हैं...
बीते लम्हें……

चंद लम्हात के वास्ते ही सही
मुस्कुराकर मिली थी मुझे जिंदगी..
तेरी आगोश में दिन थे मेरे कटे
तेरी बाहों में थी मेरी रातें कटी..
आज भी जब वो पल मुझको याद आते हैं
दिल से सारे ग़मों को भुला जाते हैं...

दर्द में भी यह लब मुस्कुरा जाते है
बीते लम्हें हमें जब भी याद आते हैं...

मेरे काँधे पे सर को झुकाना तेरा
मेरे सीने में खुद को छुपाना तेरा..
आके मेरी पनाहों में शामो सेहर
कांच की तरह वो टूट जाना तेरा
आज भी जब वो मंज़र नज़र आते हैं
दिल की वीरानियों को मिटा जाते हैं

दर्द में भी यह लब मुस्कुरा जाते है...
बीते लम्हें हमें जब भी याद आते हैं...
बीते लम्हें……

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me...

Some days ago, I read a post on my sister's blog about Flight Lieutenant Divya Bansal. That was really a heart touching article. The article beautifully portrays the pain, the valor and ultimate sacrificing nature of a woman. I thought about the courage of Divya Bansal and then I thought of her husband Squadron Leader Gaurav Varma. People who are alive can express their emotions and feelings or sometime can also hide their sentiments. But what about the one who are dead....
I just happen to found one song, which defined the sentiments of many soldiers like Late Gaurav Varma, for their loved ones. Read the whole song once, you will understand that the feelings of the people who left us.

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me...

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When Tomorrow Starts Without Me, And I’m Not There To See,
If The Sun Should Rise And Find Your Eyes, All Filled With Tears For Me,

I Wish So Much You Wouldn’t Cry, The Way You Did Today,
While Thinking Of The Many Things We Didn’t Get To Say.

I Know How Much You Love Me, As Much As I Love You,
And Each Time That You Think Of Me, I Know You’ll Miss Me Too.

But When Tomorrow Starts Without Me, Please Try To Understand,
That An Angel Came And Called My Name And Took Me By The Hand.

And Said My Place Was Ready In Heaven Far Above,
And That I’d Have To Leave Behind, All Those Things I Dearly Love.

But As I Turned To Walk Away, A Tear Fell From My Eye,
For All My Life, I’d Always Thought, I Didn’t Want To Die.

I Had So Much To Live For, So Much Yet To Do,
It Seemed Almost Impossible, That I Was Leaving You.

I Thought Of All The Yesterdays, The Good Ones And The Bad,
I Thought Of All The Love We Shared, And All The Fun We Had.

If I Could Relive Yesterday, Just Even For A While,
I’d Say Goodbye And Kiss You, And Maybe See You Smile.

But Then I Fully Realized, That Could Never Be,
For Emptiness And Memories, Would Take The Place Of Me.

And When I Thought Of Worldly Things, I Might Miss Come Tomorrow,
I Thought Of You, And When I Did, My Heart Was Filled With Sorrow.

But When I Walked Through Heaven’s Gates, I Felt So Much At Home.
When God Looked Down And Smiled At Me, From His Great Golden Throne.

He Said, “This Is Eternity, And All I’ve Promised You.
Today Your Life On Earth Is Past, And Here It Starts Anew”.

“I Promise No Tomorrow, But Today Will Always Last,
And Since Each Day’s The Same Day, There’s No Longing For The Past”.

“But You Have Been So Faithful, So Trusting And So True,
Though There Were Times You Did Some Things, You Know You Shouldn’t Do”.

“But You Have Been Forgiven, And Now At Last You’re Free,
So Won’t You Take My Hand Now And Share My Life With Me”.

So When Tomorrow Starts Without Me, Don’t Think We’re Far Apart,
For Every Time You Think Of Me, I’m Right Here In Your Heart

- Dedicated to all of us...

Bihar – No more a Follower

During Feb 11-13, 3rd Bihar Science Conference was organised by Bihar Brain Scholastic Center which was hosted by Magadh University at Gaya College, Gaya. Luckily, I happened to submt my abstract under the Theme: Electronics and Information Technology and was selected. The following abstract was published in the Conference.

Bihar - No More a Follower

The technology advancement in Bihar isn’t very far behind the other states. Today our govt. is working hard on those cheap and simple technologies that are ignored by the giant IT leaders of India. Today Mobile has become an essential part of our life and almost everyone knows how to handle a mobile for making calls along with sending and receiving SMSs. Nobody knew that sending and receiving a text message can be helpful in such a large scale. Govt. of Bihar has always been keen towards the overall growth of the state through the innovative use of low cost technology. Its support and enthusiasm for same is extremely appreciable. The Govt. of Bihar has officially introduced SMS Based Monitoring System to collect Block wise development report through a simple text SMS.
The block level officers of different schemes viz. NREGS, Pension, Dress/Bicycle, scholarship, road/bridges, ICDS, health, food, Indira Awas, and mutation send their daily progress report through a simple text SMS. Every scheme is given a particular code and every report a particular format. The SMSs are sent to a centralized SMS server where it is decoded and different types of reports and Graphs are generated on its basis. “Just because that these SMSs are to be sent everyday, the efficiency of the blocks has been surprisingly increased”, as quoted by a District Magistrate. The reports are published on internet for the public to bring transparency in the system. Thus people can know how much dresses & bicycles were distributed in their blocks and the numbers of schemes currently being carried out by NREGA. Blocks are the smallest unit of Govt. to receive report from them has been very time consuming job in addition to it, the reliability percentage of the reports were ironically very low.
With the advent of this system, the Govt. is receiving quick information the existing system isn’t Stopped but the new technology will be used so an additional support system. Getting reports through SMSs is also eco-friendly as it reduces lots of paper work. This system may be used by other states in future. In simple words of the Chief Minister of Bihar- “what Bihar does today, the entire country follows tomorrow”. What a Splendid idea!

The Pursuit of Happiness

I am often called PJ by some of my very "Good Friends". It’s OK for me, coz, Initial of my Name and some of the very adorable mishappenings of my life almost resemble this title.

In some of my previous postings on my blog, I didn’t cope up with the above honour. I came to know this coz, after reading them, one of my very Good Friends called me up, complained and scolded me because she missed some expected humors from my post. I was deliberately reminded that what ever happens, what ever I do, and how much I am screwed, I must not miss “the Fun”, “the Ecstasy” and “the Humour” of being Piyush – What an sweet Irony…..!!!

I think I don’t deserve a better compliment than this one. I can make a few people smile, feel happy, from the expression of my thoughts and views of my life. This reminded me of my old college days, when we used to yell out every time we get screwed -

“Zindagi #@!* hai, fir bhi ghamand hai, kyonki ………..”

Ok ok ok ….. fill that yourself, I am not doing that, coz it’s a public place.

Phew…..

I have to try and work hard to keep pace with my reputation. Oh God ! Life is terrible…… no not really.…...Actually,

Life’s Best Always..…!!

Result of General Election 2009 – Bihar Fail

I know it’s a shocking news for everyone, but it’s the fact. Though the performance of Bihar was excellent, and as an approximation we can say that Bihar gets 8/10, but end result – Bihar Fail. The best part of the General Election 2009 in Bihar was that the Candidates backed with violence and corruptions were pushed back. The Parties who used to blackmail Central for profitable ministries and favorable decisions, were pushed back. One of the two major alliances came up with higher majorities giving Support – On – Sale a considerable rest. It’s not that I am supporting UPA or NDA but the fact that some opportunist Parties like RJD and LJP always blackmailed these Alliances for better ministry. And in General Election 2009 people of India denied this form of politics.

The worst form of it, no one from Bihar is going to get a major Portfolio in Central Ministry. So, no new expectations for renovation of Bihar can be expected from the Central. It’s a fact that Bihar has never been anytime favorites of Central. Therefore, the path of development without the support of Central is going to be tough for us. But lets hope for the better, we still have a very good government in Bihar, which is striving hard for the betterment of the people. I hope Bihar performs again in the next Parliamentary Election.

You say it best, when you say nothing at all

Sometimes it happens that when we call our dear and near ones (be it a family member or friend or someone called Nobody), we talk the usual things but we are unable to speak out our heart. One of my colleagues once introduced me this song which complete one's missing words that sometimes we wish to listen from her/him.

You say it best, when you say nothing at all
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It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark

Try as I may, I can never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

(Chorus)
The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never
leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me where
ever I fall
You say it best, when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd

Try as they may, they can never define
What's been said between your heart and mine

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never
leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me where
ever I fall
You say it best, when you say nothing at all

- Piyush

Bihar Again.....!!

An article from Times of India, Patna Edition, dated: 17th April 2009.

" PATNA: Bihar has earned the distinction of becoming the first state in the country to install Voters' Information Kiosks. Designed on the pattern of ATMs, voters can get information pertaining to their booth number, serial number in voters' lists etc. by keying in the name of the constituency they belong to, their name or other details......In case of similar names, voters would also have to enter their father's name. Apart from individual information, details can also be gathered about family members. "
The complete article can be read at Times of India.

After reading this, I found myself Lucky enough to be associated with the two projects of EC. First one was online Elector search application, about that I wrote in my previous blog. While the second one is honored by a very prominent News Agency of India, Times of India, Patna Edition.

The Best of Bihar is still left. It’s just a new beginning.....!!

General Election – 2009 .................. EPIC's EPIC

My views and Overviews

Nowadays India is celebrating one of its biggest festivals called Election. General Election 2009 will be held in April-May 09. While I was appointed by company to work with the Election Office I came to get myself familiar with working of Election IT Deptt. in Bihar (in the Office of the Chief Electoral Officer, Bihar, Patna.). I closely got myself familiar with the working of the IT Department and the pros and cons of outsourcing of some works to the private firms.

We often hear of printing problems of EPIC (Electoral Photo Identity Card) popularly known as Election I-Card. The difference in photo, Age, Relative name are very common. Though ECI (Election Commission of India) is very rich in IT and manpower they outsource the development of softwares related with EPIC Generation and Photo Roll generation. Instead of developing common software they have handed over the development to SLA’s (State Level Agencies) of the concerned states. The database structure, Input and the output formats of the ECI is predefined all over the country but it is being individually developed in every state. Thus resulting in waste of lots of money and Time. If the ECI IT development Team had handled the development of the required software, the monitoring of software development could had been much easier. The software thus produced can be trusted for better result.

As for news, our company developed a web based software for searching Electors details. At presently it is being used in Patna DM Office as help line software. Same can also be accessed from the official website of Patna, Muzaffarpur, Munger and Khagaria.

The printing errors cannot be entirely blamed on Election Office, as it is outsourced to different Agencies (Field Units) in Districts, but the responsibility remains with the Election Department. The Field Unit members arrange photography and print EPIC. The unskilled employees make remarkable mistakes which we can see in the form of EPIC. Instead of hiring private Firms for the aforesaid job, the Govt. of the concerned state must take this job into their hand and carry out the job more proficiently.

Since an EPIC is a nationally acclaimed Photo Identity Card, it must be managed more carefully than it is being now. For this govt. can form a corporation just as they formed other corporations. Thus, instead of going at war level, for EPIC generation along with photography and corrections, just before the elections, can be omitted. Govt. is also working hard to develop a Single Identification Number to each of its citizens, this corporation can provide help in this endeavor. This can be summed up as killing two birds with a single stone. But the decision of forming such type of department resides with the Govt. Development and maintenance will surely create some more employment options. But India is busy in celebrating a festival. We hope till next election, the Govt. of India will look into this matter and take some positive steps. Till then think rigorously and be positive to cast your vote.

On Valentine's Day

I wrote this Poem exactly 10 years ago. When we were in our teenage, we use to see This World with different perspective than we do now. Today when I re-read this Poem, the old memories flashed through my eyes. The bitter sweet experience of fear and ecstasy…….those days were just awesome.

Life’s Best Always

On Valentine’s Day

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Through this card,

On the day of Valentine’s.

I wish you, Oh! Dear,

All heart full wishes of Mine.

Neither You know me,

Nor I adore You higher,

Yet very talks of,

Your Beauty & Grace

made me your Admirer.

Through this small Gesture,

That I have send.

I wanna know,

Can I be your Friend..?

The pleasant thoughts of You

Have captivated my Dreams,

And you are the only person,

To save me from this shore less stream.

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Happy Valentine's Day

- Piyush

Paint it Yellow...!!!

Today, i.e. on 31st January 2009, we Indians are celebrating Basant Panchami. Basant Panchami has a specific meaning, Basant means Spring, whereas Panchami means the fifth day of the spring. It falls on Panchami - on the Waxing Moon.

The day of Basant Panchami is dedicated to Goddess Sarasvati. Sarasvati is the goddess of learning who bequeaths the greatest wealth to humanity, the wealth of knowledge. Hindu mythology depicts Maa Sarasvati as a pristine lady bedecked with white attire, white flowers and white pearls, sitting on a white lotus, which blooms in a wide stretch of water. The Goddess also holds Veena, a string-instrument, like Sitar, for playing music. The prayer of Sarasvati finally concludes as, "Oh Mother Sarasvati remove the darkness (ignorance) of my mind and bless me with the eternal Knowledge."

The festival is celebrated with full vivacity and festivity to mark the end of the winters. It is one of the first festivals of the Year and is celebrated all over India. Color of the year 2009 is Mimosa (or the Yellow Color). The yellow color has great significance, people wear yellow clothes, offer yellow flowers in worship and put a yellow, turmeric tilak on their forehead.

Happy Saraswati Puja and Basant Panchami to EveryOne.

AstaLavista 2008

Today, its last day of 2008. Another year went off with loads of happenings. Some of them might keep tickling me through rest of my life while others will hibernate till something special awakens them.
It is said, What ever happens, has some positive aspects attached to it. With this hope in my Heart, I bid adieu to 2008. No one can be a better teacher than time. It waits, it sets and in end, it rehabilitates our life. I thank God for all of his Love and Blessings that He showered on me in 2008.

The New Year again comes with lots of new thoughts, desires and dreams.

New is the year,

New are the Hopes and the Aspirations.

New is the Resolution

New are the Spirits And forever my Warm Wishes are for Everyone.

Have a Promising and Fulfilling

New Year-2009.

- Piyush